Damned again

July 29, 2013 at 9:42 am Leave a comment

It’s a bad day and I need to vent.

I really want to scream, but silence with tears are the only things I can do. I am imagining myself in a beach, on white sands, looking at big waves. I am dreaming of me time which may never come true. I am now married, tied with a child and motherhood responsibility, started in a quite young age as my self consider.

I tried to coat my disquitetude with fake cheerful face, but I am too honest.

Pray is not enough.
Act is not helping.

Can the world stop spinning for a day, even though I know I won’t change anything if I am the one who lives on that weird day.

No pastor, parents, spouse can teach, give advise, or motivate me wiser and better, and my ears are closed for those things like my own mind is the best thing to look up to. And this moment I feel so atheist.

I still need to vent for the real story to be heard.

Damn, I am crying again.


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